Soldier

Suck it all in and plaster on a fake smile wherever you go. Dont let people see you fall, pick yourself up from the ground and move. Dont expect people to stop and help you out cause it barely happens. The world doesn't stop whenever you're down. Take control of your feelings and never let your feelings control you. Your mind does whatever you tell it to and you're responsible to set it right. This is what im trying to do and I know I always get what I want because I'm a determined person.

Cool eh? :)

Good news, Bad news, Best news

Okayy, here is how to put it as simple as possible...

Friday the 13th is gonna be the day my final test for driving license is held. Im quite nervous, seemingly cause I only had a 1 hour practice session. Too lazy to complete the other 7. So to me its good news :)

Next wednesday, 18 november 2009, is the day my biggest exam is gonna be held. SPM, the only 3 alphabets that can give you the scare of your life. Its going to be on for 3 weeks and it will surely be the longest 3 weeks of my life.

Finally, 9th of December is the date all we 17 year olds await anxiously to come. MERDEKA, our ultimate freedom, the end to our sophomore years, the start of a new beginning. We all have our own plans to comemorate the end of our form 5 year, which also includes prom night :) The buddies and I are planning to conquer one whole Malaysia, if thats possible ofcourse. Fun will be made our top priority and endless partying will be our daily activity.

Well, thats it for today. Do pray I'll pass my driving exams, and do well in my SPM.
Ps, I try so hard not to think of partying until my exams are over :)

Bestfriends and girlfriend

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.


Thats what I cane describe about my bestfriends and Natasya :)

Falling over :)

This week was fun. Well, I did alot of studying and it was tiring. Spent alot of times with my close friends and Tasya too :) I talk to her alot and I'm really happy when shes around. Miss her alot too. Its hard for me to really express how i feel about her.

She won my heart.
And all I can say is that I love her :)

Going well

My life is so peaceful and good. Thank god, it has never been this good. Thanks to everyone who helped. Bestfriends, friends, 'ayuk', and family :)

Raya 09

What can I say to sum up all the fun times i had during the festive eid. This raya was a raya I'll never forget. It was so different, so fun and exciting. To type it all down is just simply too long. But here is more less the 'long story short' of my aidilfitri moment.

1 day before raya

Arrived at Rawang in the afternoon, did some shopping before that. After arriving I had to help out with all the work and it was tiring. Potong rumput, panjat pokok potong dahan, cuci longkang, sapu. I even had to help cook in the kitchen. Where'd all the girls go? well the mak ciks ada but my cousins are more of an outgoing people.

Raya time

In the morning i woke up and my mom asked me to take a shower fast. Well, there were only 2 toilets at my kampung and i had to share it among 15 people? haha, so its more of a sape cepat dia dapat thing. After that went and raya with my mom and went for raya prayers at the surau. Then called dad, wished him raya. At noon we all shooked hands and begged for forgiveness. Got loads of duit raya doing it too.

Throughout raya

At rawang, we played alot of ping pong and hung out. I also studied coz SPM is really near.

Sometime after raya

When i got back from Rawang, i went straight to Klang. Spent raya with my dad's side of the family. It wasnt as fun as spending raya at rawang, but I feel more happy at klang. After a few days at klang i went back to kl. As soon as i reached KL, i called up hanif and he told me theres gonna be a futsal match that night. So i showed up just to watch the game. Finally, met the other braders. Salam raya with them too. haha, that night dad called up and wanted me to come to cheras for a family gathering.

So i asked scott and firas to come along. Im not driving to cheras alone, well i would if i had a license. Firas stinks so bad coz he just played futsal earlier. Otw to cheras there was a road block. Thank god i brought scott along. We switched seats and the policemen stopped us, they thought we had drugs with us.

They searched us all around and even the car was messy coz they searched everywhere. They kept asking us questions if we had drugs and shit. They even wanted to do urine tests on us. Me and scott kept our cool, firas had his legs shaking, haha. Suddenly one of them found a plastic bag.

It was filled with something i dont even know. They thought it was drugs. Firas scott and i were suprised. We dont carry drugs. Then i came over him to see what it was and found out that it was my dads misai kucing. I was like, thank god. Finally they let us loose, no urine test, no summones and no problems.

Sometime more after raya

I had a gathering at my house. Called up the buddies and they went raya at my house. Spent alot of time playing winning eleven, going through the internet and all. Then i gave them duit raya and some other surprise. haha.

Went raya at bella's house too. Makan kuih, played the piano and watched superhero movie. Fun times.

Well, that sums it up. There's alot more but Im too lazy to type them all down. Take care guys :)

Going public

My blog is now public. Used to keep it in private mode. Well, enjoy people

End of Ramadhan

Today is the last day of puasa. Cant beleive it. Time flies, went for berbuka with the guys yesteray. Dann was there as well. After berbuka we wanted to jam at the bandshop but it was closed, i guess they wana go kampung too. So we decided to go to Ali Baba. Otw there we had a sudden change of plans, we went to BA. Had some drinks, food and even bought dvd's.

How i wished I can get my license quick. Life is sooo hard without a driving license. If i had one I could visit the guys at night. I cant even bring my friends over to kampung and I can even go watch football somewhere, anywhere. But Im still grateful of what i have. Syukur :)

Going to Rawang later, next update will be after raya. Till then :)

Day out

It was a nice day. I was still sleeping when aiman woke me up. I was like wtf so i answered the phone. He was sad cause he just broke up. he called in the morning. Then i phoned firas and he said he was still in tuition. He's gonna finish at 1 so i had to wait. then called hanif and he doesnt mind going to aiman's. then we made our wayy to aiman's. called aiman and he decided to go out to my car. We waited for like 5 minutes and he finally shows up with a guitar. He fucking knocked my car on the hood and banged my seat again. Fuck, but i understand what he was going through. breaking up with someone you've been inlove with fr nearly 2 years is no joke.

After talking for awhile, we decided to go to amar's since we were at ukay perdana. At amar's we came up with this crazy idea to go to bukit belacan. it wasn't so far but wth. then we drove to bukit belacan. on our wayy there we got kinda lost and started asking people for directions. funny though. then we finally arrived. it was more like a celebration for aiman's single day. we had to pay rm1 to getinto the place and so we did. we walked for like nearly 1km until we finally came to a dead end. It was not such of nice place though. the river at the end is very stagnant and dirty. I bet lots a people took a shit in it. Then we had to make our 1km way back to the car. and guess what, it fucking rained...HEAVILY!

We ran and ran. Im the real handicap coz i cant sprint cause my knee is messed up. But im the one with consistent stamina. So even if i dont run fast, i managed to beat aiman and amar. Firas, hani and I finally reached the car. a few minutes later aiman and amar arrived. Crap, my car was so smelly and wet. Its was disgusting and fun at the same time. Then we went to titiwangsa. Amar drove. Amar without his shirt and in his towel just got out of the car in the middle of the road and switched places with me. funny funny. Then went to titiwangsa. We wanted to play football with these indians but decided to walk around first.

We went to this huge playground. We then started playing. Swings, slides, stairs, monkey bars, we all felt younger. Then we saw a group of people trying to take photographs. Heh, we thought they were lame. Amar also gave firas a suprise gift up his ass and then pinned him to the ground. Firas was in so much pain that he couldnt walk for awhile. Then we went home. Otw home, I came up with the dumbess, craziest and most whacky idea i've come up with so far. We would all sneak out and go to genting! Genting wehh, thats kinda extreme eh.

So i then got permission to sleep at prima. Then i went and pick hanif and hakim. Then went to pick amar. Waited till 1.30 and picked firas up. Then we made our wayy to genting. Long wayy there, and it was really fun. My car is strong seemingly there are 5 people in it while climbing up to genting! Finally reached genting. I finally got a parking at sum place sumwhere. Firas and hanif bought Mcd while amar and i bought marry brown. it was so cold up there we didnt even burn our tingue when we ate the hot food. Then we went to this place with a superb view of kl. Because it was at night, the view got even better with lights all around.

They smoked, and we took pictures. And decided to go home, since we didnt have alot of time. So i drove back. we finally sent firas and amar home whereas hanif and hakim slept at my place. That night is very enjoyable and memorable. Wont ever forget it. Cant wait for all the shit we're gonna do after spm :)

Trials-Meteors-Tasya ;)

SPM trial are now on and so many things have happened. Time has passed tremendously and SPM exams are just around the corner. Anyways, Bm was okayy. It wasnt that bad. Im looking forward to chemistry tomorow. And i screwed up english just now.

Lets see, thing that happened this month are quite a few. First was firas' suprise party. Took him out and ate and then karaoke till our lungs burnt. I gave him a present, hehe. Then i went and studied with hanif, aiman and firas at aiman's house. Aiman's mom is really kind. She cooks for us and she talks with us and all those other kind stuff.

Yeah, we also snuck out a couple of times. Funny coz we actually snuck out on a school night. I called hanif the other night and asked him if he wanted to sneak out to watch meteors in the sky. he asked firas and we're good to go. so then i picked them up. oh oh, and i even went to see tasya :)

We talked and all but she had to go in coz her mom was calling her already =(
Firas also brought his broken slr that ran out of batteries when we were taking photos. funny times. I even met weena. Weena is a really kind girl, i get worried at times about her and all.

I can only see her when i go to tuitions at kasturi. Anyways, thats all for now :)

Jerk =/

I've been a jerk. I've done so many things that I'm not proud of. I'm only human, and this is my mistake. I'm sorry for all my wrong doings. I would never think that it would become this way. Truly from my heart, I love you guys. You all were an evolution, a new chapter in my life. I'd die for my friends. You guys never know how lucky I am to have you. I understand if you dont want to gv me another chance. I swear to be as good as I can be. People learn from their mistakes and I've definitely learnt mine. To these people, I'll never forget you

Scott
Firas
Hanif
Amar
Zarif
Mawi
Aiman

You guys are really special. I'd try my best to help you whenever you need help.
Like my mom always say, its not about how you break down about your problem, its about how you deal with it.
Ps, This is not a gay message -.-'

Skipping Stones

Ok, July tests have already started. And a day before the test Amar, Hanif and I planned to go for a swim. I had to complete some work at Setiawangsa before having to pick up Amar. So after picking up Amar, we pushed on. We then stopped by a 99 speedymart coz Amar wanted to buy some ciggarettes. Just as Amar walked out of the car, he realised that he forgotten to bring his wallet. Funny, so then we stopped at Petronas and I paid Amar for his ciggs. He owes me 9 bucks. Then I went and picked up Hanif from Choice restaurant. He says he's to shy to go to Jon's house alone. After picking him up, we went to Desa View. Leon and Jon were supposed to join us. But when we called them up, they said that their parents didnt allow them to go swim. Whats worst is that the pool is so fucking full with people. Leceh ahhhh. So we brainstormed on what we can do to past the time. And we then went to jalan N to see if we caould swim at the river. i went through the back with Amar and Hanif and saw Syira's dad fishing there. No suprise though cause i ecpexted that. But the water was kinda filthy anyways so we decided to travel to the Dam at klang gate. I parked my car at jalan P. Amar was frustrated we had to walk. He refuses to walk far and I lied to him and said that it was near. Thats the only wayy to get Amar to move his ass. No offense Amar. we still love you. As we got there, we found this nice spot. we quickly changed and dipped into the pool. It was great although it was just some shallow river. We also played skipping stones. that was fun. Hanif rocks at it. Then i found this really huge rock and Hanif said that he'd give me 2 bucks if I can skip it. It seemed so impossible but in the end the stone actually skipped. it was so hilarious. we all laughed our asses off. Then i told Hanif if he could skip a stone that big he doesnt have to pay me and he managed to do it. Then we took a last dive and got out of the river. We changed and took some pictures. Gosh it was fun. I feel so lucky to have them as friends =)
Then i sent them back.

Viking game

Just now was really fun. Well, school was tiring, kasturi made it worst. I was supposed to stop at Masjid Jamek station to go for my friday prayers, but i slept in the train and woke up at bangsar station. Gosh, then patah balik to pasar seni since time's up for friday prayers. In the train i actually donned a face mask. everyone was fucking looking at me. but like I always say, better to have everyone look at you while you're healthy than not having anyone see you when you get quarantined. when i was sitting for bio, Martina walked in. oh god -.- i didnt want to have any friends at tution but oh well, appreciate what you have. after bio was sejarah and est. then i got back home. when i reached terminal putra i was shocked to see my car disappear. i was so scared it got stolen. i nearly broke down, and when i turned around, to my relief was my car sitting nicely beside a Volvo. Then went to nando's with mom and little bro for dinner. Planned to go to cue ball with felix but a sudden change of plans happened. the geng and i went to damai. shisha sucked so we went to ali baba's instead. that was the cool part. we were playing this viking game amar thought us. Its a drinking game only we drank plain water instead of alcohol. Its was hilarious. The point of the game is no one wins. there are only losers. Not only did i drink plain water but disgusting things too like water + salt + curry + pepper. Shisha was great. then we all went home and sang a song on the way home. next stop is scotts party and cheercomp. oh oh, and i've never forget about my studies =)

Keep in touch

* Im having some problem with my internet. I'll update this blog later.

School is sooo cool, not!

Okayy, school just started and its soo hard to adapt to it coz we've all just finished our holidays. Waking up early is hard but its not that bad. I've gotten alot of exam papers. I suck, grades are falling and SPM is just around the corner. Today at school i witness a funny debate. 2 group of prom committees are like fighting or maybe discussing what should be done to end their conflict. Can't wait for friday night, cue ball with the braders. haha. till then, see you

a simple start

Well, syira lied to me again. thats the last time i can take it. She is now happy with someone else. like firas says, there are so many other flowers in the world, so go pick another. finally, im starting to take control of my life. haha, been having so much fun lately. this is no 'start of something new', thats just too girly, this is my simple start =)

Bukit Anrtarabangsa, Ampang

Went to BA with scott just now. Pegi beli makan. Then carik jalan ke apartment ni. then jalan2. the apartment wasnt hard to look for. didnt expect it though.

Then drove around the place. Got bored and decided to go to mc Donalds ampang. lepak there, got ourselves some drinks and watched football. then got home. and here i am.

Haha =)

Back and running

Hey people, Ive decided to continue my blog and life has loads of ups and downs. Mines more towards the down side. But im ok. So I finally come to my senses. She doesnt want me? i dont know. Well I fell like she doesnt need me. Is there anything i can do to change that?

Exams are going on now. Leceh sial. Found new bestfriends. Scott ngan emilia. Dua2 sewel. Anyways, chow dulu =)

Fucking school

Schools a dick. They shuffled the whole class which are taking biology and everything is jumbled up. As i said i was in class KREATIF. It was cool. I mean really really cool.

Then they reshuffled the whole thing again. Just because they cant handle a few phone calls. Just as people are getting comfortable with their classes they made things worst again.

People, this year is SPM year. Do yourselves a favour. Stop whinning and go on with the class you have. Our class was having the most perfect environment to study. TOO perfect for spm.

Well, now that its reshuffled, my class is noisy as it always is and it always will be. Not saying that i dont like it. I really do like being with my friends but its not right because i fell the need to concentrate in class becomes harder and studying only makes thing worst in that class.

Sorry guys, i just prefer the old class. So does Leon, Jon, Douglas, Megat and Hardesh. we just wanna do good in SPM. We just wanna think about our future.

The school shouldnt do what they think they cant handle. It only makes things worst.

Football

Im scared to go for the football tryouts this year. Im not that good but i love football. There are loads of talented students i'll have to be competing with. I play at padang F. its really fun and my recent form isnt good at all.

What say you people? any ideas? should i go for it? do you think i have what it takes?

Decisions

Im in a dilemma. We all had to submit a form saying what subject we wanna take for spm. okayy, wasn't hard until i dunno whether i had to pick accounts or not. i hate accounts. seriously. to me its really boring and hard and i hv no passion for it.

mom wants me to take it. i took it since last year so that my mom wouldn't feel bad. haih. anyways i didnt pick accounts and there is also another time where we have to pick the subjects we want again.

maybe by that time i can carry account? should i quit? any suggestions people?

who am i asking, no one is viewing my blog yet. haha

School is cool

Yesterday was the first day of school. I arrived late though, maybe its because i was watching football last night. anyways found out that i got into class KREATIF. at first i was like what the fuck, but then it turned out to be okayy.

Alot of my close friends are there. Teachers were okayy, not that bad. this year is spm year and my class is a good environment to study.

Will tell you more next time =)

they wait

In the morning i woke up because of jag. that motherfucker, haha. anyways he asked me out to pavilion but i couldnt coz mom wanted me to follow her. then i forgot music class was moved 30 minutes earlier. got there late. teacher wasnt there. replacement teacher thought me.

Then went to my cousins. frisbee anyone? very funny. slept for awhile then went home. tipical. mom was really mad at me form the morning coz she said i was rude. sorry mom. she was made until night.

Thoughts about syira lingered. she was in pain. sumtims i wish she could see how much i wanna help her. I was freaking worried she'll kill herself. She got mad at me. oh and btw i was still sick, fever.

Anyways, got out to watch yes man with my cousins. theyre having fun, but im still worried about syira. she was really in need of help.

Didnt watch yes man, no more movies of it with suitable times. wanted to watch outlander, full house, bummer. then ip man, and still full house, then bedtime stories and also a full house. fucking dumbnuts. it is saturday night after all.

ended up watching 'they wait'. Its okayy. not sooo bad. not that scary. suspense. now we're back at home. cousins are sleeping over. i got shocked when i saw her blog. haish -.-

got me sad. killed the mood and nearly cried. i've toughen up. hide the feelings man. wish i could be a better guy. for her sake. i'll try my best i promise.

thats all, stay tooned fools =)